brOken HeaRt

cehhh..broken heart???yaa..my heart was broken..so sad..but i'm still okeyh..hahahaha..see..stil can lought..even my heart were cried!!!love is very meaningful..when u deeply in love u can feel it whts the meaning of love..4 me love is very hurt..u know y.???.cos when i love him i never get him..i dnt know y..but i tried  2 get him i try change evrything 4 him but it just wasted..!!!.arghhh...actually i hve a bf b4 this but i decide 2 over it cos my heart cn't accept him anymore..at the same time i hve a frnd tht very close with me..his very simple..he still young but their thinking very matured..cos of it i fallin love with him..so bad rite..hahahahaa..haishhhh..cn i stop using the english....hee..hurm now i wnt 2 smbng blek about the story k..hurm mle2 knal ak kureng sket nk lyn die but after  wedding my bro we start closed n start going 2 date..but just a frnd..but after a week kowt we start 2 be more seriouse...cos our heart always wnt 2 said love u b..love u bby..hahahhaa..so we decide 2 change our relation 2 be more than frnd..but at the same time i'm still in a relation with "k"...its very dificult..arghhh...tnsion u...hurm..my heart wnt him but the same time i must think about my fmly..i know if i choose "n" my fmly myb cnt accept him cos my fmly especially my mom very la sngt syg kt "k"...so its very la ssh nk wt kptsn..even i know wht my heart wnt but still hard 2 make it  decision 4 tht thing...but i'm stil try 2 explain about my prob with "k" 2 my mom n hope she understand our situation..unfortunately my mom x memahami lngsng n always mnyalah kn sy dlm stiap prmslhn even slah 2 bkn dtg dr sy...so sad...cos of it la my heart jd tawar ntok mneruskn the relation with "k"..n now i decide ntok break it off with "k"cos my heart said da x larat da nk mkn hty sndri lg....then last night i'm going 2 be honest 2 "k" n ask him 2 over this situation..n he accept it..thnks god..i wont hurt him so tht ak mst lps kn die...n ak da pon lps kn die...now ak da pon single..but hows about my relation wth "n"???we are couple o wht???hurm nth la..we like a couple n pernah declare about tht just mse 2 i'm still in relation but he stil wnt it..so now myb i'm his gf....hahahahaa..i dnt know...honestly..i love him..i wnt him..n at the same time "n" were change..his not same like b4 this..i dnt know y...arghhhh...so tnsion u know...but i still releks...even my heart are very hurt....then at the same days i were call "n" n ask him about our status..then he just says evrything is okeyh..bby x pyh pk sngt..dnt worried..evrything is okeyh just b in a problem..thts y b x pat nk always cnteck bby...dnt think bad thing if u wont a bad thing happen so dnt think it..cm sengal kn...but ths wht he said 2 me..huh...!!!so fucking rite..knpe seblom ni okeyh jer but after my bufday he were change...cm bodo jer kn..but after ak gtau yg ak ngn "k" da break off die mle okeyh blek...but ak plak da mle rse len...nth la..ak tkot ak da trsyg sngt2 jd cm seblom ni..like my relationship with "iqmal"...haishhhh..nth la..now ak da rse okeyh sket..x serabot..hurm x taw knpe..myb da x mkn hty sngt kowt..n blek td pon ak da g tau ummy yg ak ngn "k" da pon abes...n cm bese la ummy kn..phm2 jela..nth la..n after this ak x taw g whts going happen after this just wait n see jela yg mampu ak kate kn...hmmmmmm....so tht is broken hurt o wht yaaa....????